Super-long absence: Sorry. - Mental health blog

Super-long absence: Sorry.

by GaryP on 25 October 2010

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Hey guys/girls/anyone reading,

I haven't posted in such a long time that it could be counted as ludicrous and somewhat disgusting. I tried to post the other day - after some serious consideration, I decided that it would've been much better for me to not post at all; odd and illogical, yes, but that pretty much sums me up.

As of Friday 15th, my fantastic psychiatrist (no, really, she's great) is treating me on the basis that I am, officially, no longer depressed. Wonderful, right? No, wrong. Most people reading currently will be nothing short of surprised and bemused to hear such a declaration; recovering from something such as depression would be fantastic. Yes, yes it would.

Let's start again with a new introduction:

Hi, my name is Gary. I'm 17 and I've had more mental health experiences than that of an "average" teenager. Since I was 14, I was being treated upon the basis that I had depression. To date, I've been on three anti-depressants which I've not responded to ~ now, I'm being treated on the basis that I am, wait for it... BIPOLAR! Yes, that's right. This messed up little adolescent is a possible new recruit to the ever growing bipolar army; type 2, to be precise: not as severe as type 1, thankfully, but still with me for life nonetheless.

Right now I'm fighting myself to post this blog. In all fairness I'm terrified. Terrified to accept it, terrified people will reject me, terrified of it.

There have, of course, been darker aspects of my life previously written within prior blogs. I'd prefer not to list everything within a singular blog post such as this purely because opening myself up too much is terrifying.

Okay, I think that's all I'm going to post for now. Sorry if I don't reply for a while - I'll try to get back soon. This whole concept is still very, very scary. I apologise to the individuals whom are suffering much more than me. In comparison, it's rather pathetic that I should be anxious about it at all, in the slightest. You have my respect, you truly do.

Sorry once more.

Until next time...

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Filed under: antidepressants, Bipolar disorder, Bipolar disorder II, Mood Stabilisers

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	RosieTalk said on 26 October 2010 Good to see you back, Gary! Report this content as offensive or unsuitable
	GaryP said on 26 October 2010 Thanks Rosie! Your comment has cheered me up a fair bit, actually. So thanks. :) Report this content as offensive or unsuitable
	Caspar said on 26 October 2010 Really please to hear you have a diagnosis that fits! Report this content as offensive or unsuitable
	Mavericktv said on 21 February 2011 Hi, we saw your blog and wondered if you might be interested in a documentary we’re making for ITV looking into young people’s mental and emotional health. It’ll cover all sorts of different conditions, from OCD, trichotillomania, mood swings, self-injuring. We are in contact with a network of specialists, institutions and centres in relation to the documentary – for example the Anna Freud Centre, Rethink, The Brandon Centre in London, and are currently in talks with Maudsley Trust and the Institute of Psychiatry (King's College London). If you’d like to chat further with us or know someone else who would we’d would love to speak to you – possibly with a view to featuring in our documentary, or even just to have a research chat to understand better what it’s like.

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